Entry #4: The Beauty of Life
It's 6 AM right now where I'm at. My room is dark, lit with 6 small candles and one larger candle, with an Incense Stick burning. I want to take this time to write more about my thoughts on this blog section, since I've noticed that I haven't used it all that much ever since I requested for one to be made for me.
With all of the madness going on right now in the world, politics-wise and more generally speaking, I feel like most people don't take a step back to appreciate the beauty of life. And that's understandable! Some people can't afford to take that step back, they may be caught up in war zones, or they may be going through a terrible period in their life, other people are way too caught up in the monotony of jobs or the madness of news cycles to be able to do that, but I am currently still in a position where I can afford to do that, and I'm thankful to God for that. As I finished my last exam (Biogeography, on Friday), and as I got the last result from my exam session, which confirms that I passed all of my exams, I got 3 weeks of break. 3 weeks where I can do what I want, where I can work on my projects, where I can explore more of the city I live in, where I can reflect upon myself and the world in which we all live in.
Basically as soon as I got my last exam result (in the same night), a huge episode of snowfall happened, and a pretty significant layer of clean snow had fallen upon the streets. Since it was late in the night, traffic was slower than it usual is (obviously), and most people didn't have the chance to go out and throw salt all over the streets yet, so I decided to take a walk outside at that moment. As I stepped outside, I was able to see the actual size of the layer. This is a layer of snow of sizes I haven't seen in at least 10 years, and the fact that it was as fresh as it could be gave it this look which was magical. The snow was sparkly too, and it squeaked whenever I stepped on it. I took my time walking around my neighborhood, walking slowly, taking it all in, and feeling the peace which came with this sort of weather. At this time of the night, cars don't really pass through where I live, so the section of the snow layer on the streets was (almost) free of tire marks. It was also basically almost free of marks of people's shoes, since everyone was at home.
This is one of those moments where I could really step back and think about life. The chaos of the exam session that I went through had me in a constant state of stress and in a constant state of grinding for each exam that came up (I had 4 exams in 3 days at one point, oooh boy), so I wasn't really able to wind down up until now. It was still snowing at the time, so I was covered in snowflakes within a few minutes of being outside. When I was walking home, the only thing going through my head was... a profound state of peace. Away from people, away from cars, away from the obligations of life and of being a student. While I was walking home, I put my hand in a path of snow and took out a bit of it and let it melt in my palm to feel the coldness of it. I didn't care about the fact that my hand was now wet and cold, I just wanted to live the moment, who knows when it'll snow like this again?
When I got home, the first thing I did was lie down on my bed for a few minutes. I relaxed myself and thought of the moments when I was a child and my parents took me out to the park after a heavy snowfall episode. It really was like those good old times were happening again, except this time I was by myself. It couldn't even be the same exact formation, since my mom had been gone for a long time. Sometimes I think that she's up there in Heaven and that these episodes of snowfall that had happened in Bucharest recently were a reward from her to me for doing well academically and in other parts of my life. Of course, each to their own when it comes to spirituality and if you believe in spirituality or not, but this is a really soothing thought to me.
I know I've been talking only about snow, but this applies to other moments in my life too. I remember very vividly one moment when I woke up one morning and rays of sunshine were beaming inside of my room. That, and the beautiful greenery formed from the grass and the leaves on the trees outside of my window, as well as the chirping of the birds, all came together perfectly to form a moment where I could take a step back, take a deep breath of fresh air, and appreciate all that is around me, no matter what might be going on elsewhere or in my life.
I know this might come out as rambly and disorganized, but I really wanted to write about these moments which I view as absolutely essential to keep myself sane in this chaotic modern world, which seems like it's going to shit slowly but surely.
With all of the madness going on right now in the world, politics-wise and more generally speaking, I feel like most people don't take a step back to appreciate the beauty of life. And that's understandable! Some people can't afford to take that step back, they may be caught up in war zones, or they may be going through a terrible period in their life, other people are way too caught up in the monotony of jobs or the madness of news cycles to be able to do that, but I am currently still in a position where I can afford to do that, and I'm thankful to God for that. As I finished my last exam (Biogeography, on Friday), and as I got the last result from my exam session, which confirms that I passed all of my exams, I got 3 weeks of break. 3 weeks where I can do what I want, where I can work on my projects, where I can explore more of the city I live in, where I can reflect upon myself and the world in which we all live in.
Basically as soon as I got my last exam result (in the same night), a huge episode of snowfall happened, and a pretty significant layer of clean snow had fallen upon the streets. Since it was late in the night, traffic was slower than it usual is (obviously), and most people didn't have the chance to go out and throw salt all over the streets yet, so I decided to take a walk outside at that moment. As I stepped outside, I was able to see the actual size of the layer. This is a layer of snow of sizes I haven't seen in at least 10 years, and the fact that it was as fresh as it could be gave it this look which was magical. The snow was sparkly too, and it squeaked whenever I stepped on it. I took my time walking around my neighborhood, walking slowly, taking it all in, and feeling the peace which came with this sort of weather. At this time of the night, cars don't really pass through where I live, so the section of the snow layer on the streets was (almost) free of tire marks. It was also basically almost free of marks of people's shoes, since everyone was at home.
This is one of those moments where I could really step back and think about life. The chaos of the exam session that I went through had me in a constant state of stress and in a constant state of grinding for each exam that came up (I had 4 exams in 3 days at one point, oooh boy), so I wasn't really able to wind down up until now. It was still snowing at the time, so I was covered in snowflakes within a few minutes of being outside. When I was walking home, the only thing going through my head was... a profound state of peace. Away from people, away from cars, away from the obligations of life and of being a student. While I was walking home, I put my hand in a path of snow and took out a bit of it and let it melt in my palm to feel the coldness of it. I didn't care about the fact that my hand was now wet and cold, I just wanted to live the moment, who knows when it'll snow like this again?
When I got home, the first thing I did was lie down on my bed for a few minutes. I relaxed myself and thought of the moments when I was a child and my parents took me out to the park after a heavy snowfall episode. It really was like those good old times were happening again, except this time I was by myself. It couldn't even be the same exact formation, since my mom had been gone for a long time. Sometimes I think that she's up there in Heaven and that these episodes of snowfall that had happened in Bucharest recently were a reward from her to me for doing well academically and in other parts of my life. Of course, each to their own when it comes to spirituality and if you believe in spirituality or not, but this is a really soothing thought to me.
I know I've been talking only about snow, but this applies to other moments in my life too. I remember very vividly one moment when I woke up one morning and rays of sunshine were beaming inside of my room. That, and the beautiful greenery formed from the grass and the leaves on the trees outside of my window, as well as the chirping of the birds, all came together perfectly to form a moment where I could take a step back, take a deep breath of fresh air, and appreciate all that is around me, no matter what might be going on elsewhere or in my life.
I know this might come out as rambly and disorganized, but I really wanted to write about these moments which I view as absolutely essential to keep myself sane in this chaotic modern world, which seems like it's going to shit slowly but surely.
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