Over the past 2 years that I have been part of this wonderful community, I have thoroughly enjoyed meeting people, improving my times, PQ, and even participating in this year's Summer Tournament. Genuinely have I enjoyed my time here, but there are new horizons that await me and there are things I have to let go of in order to embrace others.
I began to feel as though I should leave the community about a month ago. I lost interest in the tourney, felt challenged by the pressures of life and wasn't even enjoying playing Marble Blast, even though it was my emotional go-to. I became very very discouraged, depressed and anxious, and it didn't seem that being part of this community was going to cut it. It's funny because now that I am really starting to go 'all in' with life again, I feel like I want to play more and develop my skills and friendships here! But I recognise that now I'm an adult (officially 18!), I have to choose between things that seem right and things that are right. And in this case, continuing with life here would only mean I sacrifice the things I deeply want to do.
I do hope this doesn't surprise anyone in a negative way. I don't like to mention names in case I miss people out, but I would in particular like to thank NatureFreak, Rosie, Kalle, Aayrl, Eguy, hPerks and Frostfire for being highly welcoming, friendly and encouraging - even if we haven't spoken much. It means a lot to feel properly welcomed into an online community, and you all made me feel at ease. EDIT: There are also other people I've talked to in recent times, thanks to you too
If anyone actually wants to stay in touch, I may consider it, although I am not one to give away social media details. I may stay on Discord but only for direct messaging and not for the MB server. Before I 'leave' leave, I have uploaded recordings of 6 works I composed whilst at music school before I go onto music conservatoire - my compositions are different to (better than ) my improvisations. Here is a link to a playlist of them all: . I am sure I will still upload recordings to my SoundCloud (see footer). Hope you enjoy
My best wishes for the community,
I'd be lying if I said I wasn't sad to see you go. You were always a cool guy to be around, and I'd love to stay in touch if you'd like. Good luck in your future. Hopefully things end up being the way you want them to be.
Come have a visit sometime. We'd love to see you again soon. <3
Haha, yeah, I wasn't sure to put you on or not! But I do remember we chatted a bit. I appreciate your comment. My plans for the future are not totally vague, music will always be at the forefront of what I'm doing. My biggest dream is to extend further and reach out into multimedia projects. I will keep my MB account so that if I do return, people will know who I am.
You'll be missed around here, your friendly and upbeat presence was always great to have. But, as I no doubt eventually will learn, it's a big world out there for a classical musician in training -- and I realize i may need to step into a similar path someday. However I'm still working to find my exact path and I'd love to keep in contact -- exchanging opinions on obscure pieces and composition techniques has been a pleasure. So I wish you the very very best of luck, and feel free to stop by, send us a postcard, something
"it's the internet eguy. where children are men. men are monkeys, and women are PQ."