Lately, I've been thinking about what I actually want to do in my future. Although music production is nice, at this stage in my life it is getting more difficult to hold that as an option (which is kind of ironic considering I started so young - you'd think that I would've gotten somewhere at this point). My parents have different ideas of what they want for me. My mom wants me to go intro programming. My dad wants me laying down "rap bangers" for people and go into the army. Although all of these things are ambitious ideas, I feel like I'm built for the stage.
I developed a persona as Michael Jackson for the past couple weeks - wanted to try something new out. His appearance and the way he performs are what intrigue me the most. I began practicing some of his moves. I even went to school one day dressed up like him, and tried to reenact some of his performances. The moral behind this? I think acting is where I want to head.
But I wonder. Is it too late? Am I actually going to get there? And am I even sure this is something I want? Or do I want to be performing songs on stage? These things I just don't know, but I do know that I want to be doing something in regards to performing. It just makes me question the opportunity, though, since it's getting late. And it's getting even later, too...
It was recently confirmed that I would be skipping a grade next year, which means I'm going to be a senior. Honestly, I don't know if I'm mentally prepared for that or not. I do know, however, that if I can get out sooner, I will. This means that I will force myself to adapt, but it also puts more pressure on my future. My whole plan is to start college this year, but just where would I start? The difficulty is deciding where I want to go and what I want to do with my life. But I'm wondering if acting is it. Is it too late?
I think my problem is that I want to do everything.
I developed a persona as Michael Jackson for the past couple weeks - wanted to try something new out. His appearance and the way he performs are what intrigue me the most. I began practicing some of his moves. I even went to school one day dressed up like him, and tried to reenact some of his performances. The moral behind this? I think acting is where I want to head.
But I wonder. Is it too late? Am I actually going to get there? And am I even sure this is something I want? Or do I want to be performing songs on stage? These things I just don't know, but I do know that I want to be doing something in regards to performing. It just makes me question the opportunity, though, since it's getting late. And it's getting even later, too...
It was recently confirmed that I would be skipping a grade next year, which means I'm going to be a senior. Honestly, I don't know if I'm mentally prepared for that or not. I do know, however, that if I can get out sooner, I will. This means that I will force myself to adapt, but it also puts more pressure on my future. My whole plan is to start college this year, but just where would I start? The difficulty is deciding where I want to go and what I want to do with my life. But I'm wondering if acting is it. Is it too late?
I think my problem is that I want to do everything.
I love you, but your attitude is like that of a shrew. Your options? Take a pill or be my kill. Might I suggest that you wear a vest. Perish in class or be banished to the land of bluegrass, where dreams don't exist as you'll be eternally pissed.