Man, I'm really sorry to hear about all this that's going on. The story of you two guys coming together is something symbolic of this community imo, and while we'll all miss it, I'm sure you guys are grateful for what was had, especially since you guys are on good terms still (so I have heard). I definitely know what that associative memory is like -- if I were in your situation I would probably have trouble keeping snapchat and things like discord as well, since all of us surrounding you were a part of how you guys met. As far as thinking about other girls -- when my last crush was clearly uninterested in me it took a while to get my head spinning right, and other girls coming into my head was something very natural but unusual at the same time, especially since I already had memories of being around her, but eventually I got over it. Obviously if you guys get back together you won't have to worry about that, but I support you all the way in getting your life working. Imo accomplishing those kinds of goals is important, and me and many other people in this community see you as an image of success in the fields of music and computers (which are big things around here), and we want to follow that. And for you guys, it seems like you found real, legit happiness together through this community which is yet another example of how tight-knit we are. Stay strong, big me. There will be another sunrise.
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-Jeff 2014